What I'm thinking is...

What I'm thinking is, is that I think even if I don't have a job lined up for next year I will quit this place anyways. I MIGHT...it's not for sure yet. The reason being is Thomas and I are about to move to Austin or even a little north of Austin...gas is going up and I would have to commute to Gonzales every morning from there...which is a lot of money on gas and hard to imagine waking up earlier than I already do and driving further than I already do. I have already cried and have super stressed about coming back here too. I called Thomas the other day crying and stressing over being here next year and he said that if I am already this unhappy about it then I don't need to come back. Now I am still applying for jobs in the Austin area and definately hope this summer I get a phone call or e-mail for a job offer but this is my idea if I don't. If I don't get a job then I will resign by July 10...that's the last day to resign if you start school August 24th...I should know...they screwed me last year because I was 1 DAY late...so I made sure and counted and marked it on every calendar I have...then I will try to sub everywhere and anywhere in the Austin area or maybe nanny, or something. I love teaching and I know that's what I want to do but I know that it's not here. This is definately not a for sure thing. I feel like the Texas education system is going down hill...and fast. I don't trust it but I know that teaching is what I want to do. Some may say that I shouldn't quit without having a job lined up first especially with these tough economic times but staying here is holding me back and it doesn't make sense to stay here another year while I could be subbing and getting to know people in the schools I want to teach at. It doesn't make sense to travel all the way here while living in Austin. There are definate pros and cons and thats why it is not a for sure decision.

On a lighter note...Thomas left for Bonham Tuesday morning and won't be back till Friday evening. I miss him soooo much. I am staying in Shiner till Sunday...I came in yesterday. I don't like staying at our apartment by myself...and I always have these crazy nightmares when I do stay there so I figured I get better sleep in Shiner. This weekend is Sweet Home picnic and Erin's Birthday!!! The big 2-4 :) I hope I get to see her this weekend!!! Last year and the year before we have made pies for the Sweet Home cookoff...this year we will continue and hopefully we will get something...like first place. We always have a good time there...hope its good this year too.

It's Finally Friday...18 more days of school!!!

Woo hoo for Friday!!! It's finally here. This week went by really slow for me and I even took Tuesday off. The kids are shut down and do not want to learn or do anything at all!!! Which makes us teachers not want to do anything either. Just 18 more days of this. 8 more days with all my studenst though because we have 10 waiver days at the end for the students that did not pass TAKS...they have to stay and get tutored. So the last 10 days will be horrible because we will have all the bad students who do not care.

Today when I get home, Thomas and I are going to finally just relax. Tomorrow we will probably sleep in and go look at a rent home in Hutto because our lease here will be up at the end of June. I can't believe how fast time has gone by in a way. I hope I find a new job soon because everyone is talking about next year already and I just get a sick feeling if I am here again next year. I love some of the kids and I love the people I work with but I don't want to put up with all the DRAMA and have to teach Math and coach. It really is hard and I just don't want to have to deal with the stresses of teaching math and on top of it, the stresses of coaching and dealing with parents! It's just getting out of control. Anyways...so Saturday we are going to just hang out and then probably head to Shiner at some point. Sunday we will celebrate Mother's Day and then head back to San Marcos.

That's about it for now. I wish I had an exciting life to blog about but right now it's all school :(

TAKS!!! Not so good, to great!!!

So Tuesday was the big day for the 7th Grade Math teachers in Texas. Not only do the students get stressed out but the teachers really do also. There is soooo much emphasis on this test and administrators sometimes use it to reflect the teachers teaching ability and so I was pretty stressed. Thomas was not around because he left Monday morning at 3:30 a.m for Bonham to work on his bbq pit so I had to be by myself and stressed. I have been talking to Thomas about how stressful it is probably all year. So Tuesday they were taking it and I was so nervous for the kids...we tried as hard as we could to cover everything and get them to understand it but it was so nerveracking. SO all in all it wasn't that great of a day but then during 7th period a student told me to go by the office before 8th period and I was questionable but didn't think anything of it. Then the assistant principal and another teacher came in my classroom and was holding this GORGEOUS arrangement of a dozen yellow roses with hints of little pink flowers. I was blown away and soooo happy. All the kids were excited and wanted to know who it was from. I absolutely loved them and he totally got me. Then I read the card and it said "Good Luck with the TAKS tests!" The assistant principal and teacher told me to hold on to him and I definately will. It was so sweet and made me feel so much better.

Thomas came in at 1:00 this morning from Bonham...I am glad I got to see him because I felt like I haven't seen him in forever. The nights we were not together I had horrible dreams but last night I finally got a good nights sleep. I hated leaving him this morning because I won't get to see him again till Sunday but we will manage:)

I am super excited about my cousin's wedding this weekend. It is going to be a blast. Thomas's friend is getting married too so that's why we won't be together.

Oh...this past weekend we went to Port Aransas for Heather's Bachelorette and it was a blast. It was soooo much fun and relaxing. I had a little too much to drink Saturday night but it was so much fun. I threw up 5 times on the way home Sunday...it was horrible but I wasn't thinking about that Saturday night...I was just thinking about partying.

Last weekend Thomas also got me my pink fishing rod I have been wanting forever and a pink fishing shirt. Now I just need to go fishing and put it to use.

I can't keep up!!!

I have been a bad blogger lately. I have not been able to keep up with it. Usually I blogged when I was giving a math test but we haven't given on lately and we have been teaching from bell to bell so I have no time at my desk. TAKS test is upon us and so we are throwing so much at the kids so they understand it. I think we could talk and teach till our faces turn blue and the kids would still not understand but at least we can say we did everything we could. So I did not get the job at Hays :( But oh well...I wanted it but I didn't because then I would be stuck doing the exact same thing I am doing here. So I just got to keep trying. I really wish I could find the job of my dreams...Elementary PE...I would be so happy. OR at least something out of the math field. OR just maybe anywhere but here...I'm not as picky as I started. Anyways...enough about work.

Thomas and I had our 1 year of "dating" anniversary Monday. We celebrated some this past weekend. He took me to the River Walk in San Antonio and we stayed in a hotel. We went to supper that evening and then went to bed at 8:30...we were tired. Then we woke up early and walked the River Walk and went to a Wax Museum and Ripley's believe it or not. Then we walked to the Alamo and went in and looked around. We headed to Shiner early because we had our Annual Chumchal Reunion. That was alright too but I was so tired. We still had a good time. Sunday was Joane's 40th birthday. It was so nice to be there and celebrate with her. Sunday we headed back home to San Marcos. I gave Thomas a Bobcat thing for his truck and the DVD collection of Band of Brothers...he really wanted it. We started watching it and at first I wasn't that into it but then as we watched all 10 hours over the past 3 days, I really started liking it. It was really good. In case you are wondering, Band of Brothers was a mini series on HBO about the Paratroopers that fought the Germans. It really is an awesome story. That's about it that is new with me. This weekend is Heather's Bachelorette Party in Port Aransas...it's going to be so much fun. I can't wait.

Been Awhile...

Man it has been awhile since I have had time to blog. Probably because the past 3 weeks we have been teaching from the beginning to the very end of class everyday. TAKS test is 2 1/2 weeks away but it has been a crazy few weeks trying to cram evrything lesson we have left in. Yesterday I had a job ionterview at Hays...I hope I get it...I really hate interviews but hopefully I did alright. I would be teaching Math and Coaching but it will hopefully be better there than where I am at right now. If not I have put my application in at many other places so hopefully I will hear from other schools soon. It's exciting and scary all at the same time. Since I last blogged, we now only have 37 more days of school. Today is my last day to throw a lesson at the students that will be on their TAKS tests. The next 2 weeks we will review for the TAKS test and then after that we have 1 chapter left to cover. Everything is finally coming to an end. I thought at the beginning of the year I would never make it. I can't wait to actually get a new job and start packing everything out of my classroom. It will be so nice. In a week and a half Thomas and I will be dating for a year!!! Crazy that it went that fast. I am so happy and love him so much. Anyways...that's about it...figured I'd catch up and blog a little before Easter Break.

Happy Easter Everyone!!!

Spring Break is over...49 more days of school

I haven't posted in a long time...I didn't get on the computer much during Spring Break. I didn't do anything too exciting during Spring Break...except Spring Break weekend when I went to Tyler and was in April's wedding and the first Monday of Spring Break when Erin came to visit and we went to the Square in San Marcos...but it was kind of disappointing...I think we had more fun at the restaurant but we still had a good time catching up and drinking. We had Mai Tais at The Green Parrot, which is always nice especially since we haven't had one in FOREVER. Then Tuesday we slept in and then did a little shopping. It was fun. Wednesday I didn't really do much. Thursday I left for Tyler and I was so lonely in bed at the hotel without Thomas...I tossed and turned all night. He said he had trouble too and didn't even sleep in our bed. Friday I just went around Tyler and went shopping of course :) April came to the hotel and we got ready for rehearsal...Thomas wasn't going to get there till later. We got there and I didn't think Thomas was going to make it and when we practiced walking down the aisle I saw him and was so happy and surprised he made it. The place April had her wedding was GORGEOUS and it was outside and I absolutely loved it. Wish I could have an outside wedding but that would be a whole lot of chairs...Then we went to eat at Fat Catz, a Louisiana Kitchen, and it was awesome. Great FOOD!!! We then went to a bar and it was fun, it was kind of like Midnight Rodeo. Then we all left and went to the places we were staying at and went to bed. Saturday I woke up early to take a shower and start getting things together for the wedding. April came to pick me up and we were off to get pedicures and it was the best pedicure ever. It was nice, we then had lunch and ran a lot of little errands. Once we were done, time started flying by and we had to do things quickly. So we got to the location of the wedding and started getting ready. We were running behind and the wedding started about 15 minutes late but it didn't matter. Everything came together so beautifully...it was all so nice. Then the partying started and it was fun. Finally the bouquet throwing came and so far every wedding I have been to I have caught it but at this one I was a little nervous because some other girls wanted it too but I did my same technique...and I caught it. I am batting at 100%. The the garter throwing came and to my surprise Thomas said he would go out there. Well none of the guys really tried for it...they all went out there and then backed away from it and let it fall so Thomas went and picked it up...it was great. He said he figured he was in trouble anyways since I caught the bouquet so he said he figured he'd get it. All in all it was an amazing, fun night and I am so happy for April and Joey. Then Sunday we woke up early and headed back to San Marcos.

So yesterday we had a track meet in Columbus and we didn't get back to Gonzales till 1:00...I got home and in bed at 2:15. I got stopped by a cop in Luling at 1:45 on the way home and I knew I wasn't speeding...so I pulled over and he told me my front head light was out and sure enough it was and he let me go and told me to go get it fixed asap. Well I knew that I would not be able to wake up this morning so at 6:00 a.m. I called and told them I won't be able to make it and to get a sub. So I am at home resting because I was soooo tired, I don't think I would have been able to make the drive this morning because it was hard enough to keep my eyes open when I was talking on the phone. I am really glad I took off though because I would have been miserable and I had a pounding headache.

Anyways...that's about it and we only have 49 more days of school...yay!!!

3 day WEEKEND!!! Shiner Stock Show!!!

I finally had a day off and had a 3 day weekend. It was great and much needed. Thursday we had a track meet and I didn't get home till 11:30. Then Friday I had to wake up early to take Kenzi to the groomer and relaxed and shopped the rest of the day. Thomas came home and I was finishong up getting ready for the stock show. When I was finally done, we left for Shiner and went to the stock show. It was a lot of fun...never a disappointment...although some jerk wanted to fight Thomas...but he is a piece of trash and useless anyways. Thomas was innocent in the whole thing too...just minding his own business and then the jerk wanted to fight him. Dad explained that he was with me and then RP stepped in and tried to explain. It didn't work because that guy is clueless and dumb and he thought Thomas was Nick. How outrageous is that...who wants to fight Nick? It's because Nick and Jenny didn't invite the asshole to the wedding but get over it...maybe if he wasn't such an asshole and gross person he would get invited to things. I really don't like the man because he tried talking shit to my dad on our property and I said a few choice words to him. So he definately won't be invited to Thomas and my wedding either...not only because I don't like him but also because Thomas doesn't either. Anyways...it was good to catch up with friends I haven't seen in a while and my family because I haven't been down in a while. Saturday I slept pretty much all day and then we went to Maeker's and had a few drinks and hung out there with family and friends, but we went home pretty early because I was worn out. Sunday we relaxed and then left for San Marcos. It was a nice weekend.



Thomas and I keep trying to figure out when our parents will meet but it hasn't worked out yet...it'll probably be when we get engaged...lol...who knows...we were going to try for this coming weekend but that's a no go. Thomas keeps talking about our wedding and getting engaged a lot and it is so exciting...I can't wait for it...he says that we will be engaged before we go to the Frio and we are thinking about an April wedding but who knows...it's far away yet and we will see what happens and only Thomas knows when...and I guess my dad will too whenever it gets close.